Honestly I don’t know, I give up on life time ago, then this last year I start “living” again by having a daily activies and job. But I deal with this like someone dead inside, I don’t feel any joy. I am not even looking for a goal. I see nothing in other people, I interact with then know that i get forget as soon the day end. I am just too scared to kill myself.
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banana_meccanica@feddit.itto Ask Lemmy@lemmy.world•What are the dangerous levels of friendship ?518·2 years agoIn any situation. That’s why most of adults don’t have friends. We pretending to want someone but also really want to not have our lives destroyed.
Still everything is now ashes, dust in the wind, nothing. All this fun hobbies are now only a meanless memory, I didn’t have nothing back, all the fun you say is become, for me, hate. Hate to have wasted my time laughing like a fool behind videogames, books, even sports, telling myself that was okay, creating a big lie that hobby was something important, just to see it ending without any result. So that’s the point, limited time sure it’s everything, but meaning is also everything in this life.
banana_meccanica@feddit.itto Ask Lemmy@lemmy.world•How would you approach buildings if they were more like synthetic organisms?12·2 years agoTree with intelligence? I don’t see any reason why this trees accepts to be buildings, there will be no benefit from them to having us around.
I didn’t find any good enough hobby in this 35 years of life that didn’t fade after some time. At moment I’m very empty inside, I spend half day sleeping and other half working, everything looks expansive to do, I give up on everything, I’m keeping myself alive because I’m just scared of the pain and I can’t imagine stop existing.
banana_meccanica@feddit.itto Ask Lemmy@lemmy.world•How would you approach buildings if they were more like synthetic organisms?5·2 years agoLike sentient organism? A building made of flesh who have thoughts? I will stay very far from any cities.
damn that’s so good, well done, lucky the guy who filled your beautiful ass.
I promise you will have the whitest butthole
banana_meccanica@feddit.itto Asklemmy@lemmy.ml•How is your experience on the Fediverse?74·2 years agoToo much extremist and people who just here to sell their blogs, website, onlyfans, ect.
banana_meccanica@feddit.itto gonewild@lemmynsfw.com•Say yes if you like my side view! 🙈🩵1·2 years agoPerfect body
banana_meccanica@feddit.itto Asklemmy@lemmy.ml•Why don’t application developers who have abandoned their development make the code they don’t need open source?381·2 years agoBecause their code is a mess, ugly and full of bugs, that is better burn to the roots that trying to fix it.
banana_meccanica@feddit.itto gonewild@lemmynsfw.com•It's always such a thrill when I think that my neighbors could catch me at anytime. (F)1·2 years agoYou need less plants on background then
Last time I see much wet I was at the waterpark
Inner peace
banana_meccanica@feddit.itto Asklemmy@lemmy.ml•In your opinion, what's the age limit for Trick r Treating?46·2 years ago12-13 in Europe.
banana_meccanica@feddit.itto Ask Lemmy@lemmy.world•Do you have a mantra that keeps you going through tough times?3·2 years ago“I am already dead” and “They are not your friends”
banana_meccanica@feddit.itto Funny@sh.itjust.works•I should start randomly messaging people this1·2 years agoThat is super interesting, I know so little about the honey badger, still I feared most a lion because his mass, because vs that I am sure to die. A little enemy like the honey badger give me more hope, going through the asshole is actually a good idea, strangle and compress his skull for sure.
banana_meccanica@feddit.itto Funny@sh.itjust.works•I should start randomly messaging people this1·2 years agoWe have claws too and teeths, I will bite his head off, rip his belly with my hand. Sure the honey badger will take maybe half of my face off, an eye, maybe even one of my hand, but I say I will win at last.
banana_meccanica@feddit.itto Funny@sh.itjust.works•I should start randomly messaging people this2·2 years agoWhy did you give them a gun? Challenging fight with both btw, without guns, maybe I will lose one eye or something, but I will fight for win.
I do, but I don’t think so.