Everything. And if I say everything, I mean everything. Here a short list during gym today:

(Alone during my gym session I listened to following):

Alan Jackson - Countryboy… Parkway Drive - Crushed… Bullet for my Valentine - Waking the Demon… Flogging Molly - Devils dance floor… Jimmy Buffett - A pirate looks at forty… Dub FX - Love someone… Taylor Swift - Blank Space… Carnifex - Die without hope… Iron Maiden - Run to the Hills… Jake Owen - Barefoot blue jeans night… Shabboozey - A Bar song… Luke Combs - When it rains it pours… Parkway Drive - Sleepwalker… Dropkick Murphys - The Seasons… The Notorious Big - Juicy… Run DMC - It’s Tricky… Paris Hilton - Stars are blind… Tupac - Changes… XZibit - … …

I listen to all genres, no genre is bad all good songs no songs bad. I never heard a song that was bad in my life.

Sometimes my gym sessions have all genres but most of the time it isn’t all random. Sometimes I go to the gym and just listen to Metalcore, another time I listen to Country, Radio, … another time the 90s HipHop or just random stuff.

I’ve worked in a few hospitals, and honestly, I wouldn’t want to be taken care of in any of the places I’ve worked. I’ve seen enough to know that. It’s funny—every nurse and doctor I meet says the same thing about the hospitals they’re in. It’s like a weird, unspoken truth in healthcare: we all agree it’s not ideal. So, in the end, maybe it’s better not to be in a hospital at all if you can help it.

It goes deeper than that though. The more I think about life in general, the more I realize it’s all a bit of a show. We’re all just putting on a facade. You see people who are supposed to be experts—whether it’s contractors, doctors, or even people you look up to personally—and then you see what they actually do behind the scenes. It’s basic, at best. I mean, I had “experts” drywalling for me recently, and what they did was laughable. These people were getting paid for this!

Same with my dad. Growing up, I thought he was this master of all trades—could do anything from building stuff in the yard to fixing things around the house. Now? I look at some of the things he’s done and realize it’s all just… okay. Not bad, but not perfect. And I think he knew that too, but we both kind of lived under the illusion that he was this all-knowing guy who could do everything.

It’s not that he’s bad at it, but perfection is something you rarely find unless you do it yourself. And if you’re like me, maybe you can’t even do it yourself. So, no matter what you do, you’re always left with something that’s just good enough.

I’ve seen million-dollar homes—didn’t buy one cause I’m not rich—but even those fancy places have problems behind the walls. No matter how much money they throw at things, it doesn’t make the work any better. The people doing the job don’t care as much as they should, because they know they’re getting paid no matter what. And the inspectors? They don’t care either. They’re just looking to check boxes, not actually do a good job.

It’s frustrating because this isn’t just about contractors or hospitals. It’s everything—in every job, in every aspect of life. People just don’t care. Even the so-called “experts” are often just figuring it out as they go, doing the bare minimum to get by. And honestly, I’m no different. I’m just getting by too, month after month, like most adults pretending they know what they’re doing.

It’s like, once you realize this, everything feels a little less magical. Perfection is out of reach. People aren’t who you think they are. And if you want something done right, you either need to do it yourself or accept that it’s never going to be perfect.

I watched (listened) to Linken Park songs and ended up at mr. pimple popper huge pimple exploding and some asians with blurry faces popping it.

Great time to be alive

That song was running up and down 2010 when I was doing my finals in school (1th grade, germany) and world cup.

Greatest summer.

Well I offer my help where I can, but it always was like: “We are already enough people but thanks anyways.” as responses before I built my house.

So I asked my one friend who is actually the “organizer” of our friend group if he needs help moving but he always said: “Thanks I’ll reach out if we need more people but we are enough thanks.” And he never really reached out and asked for my help. Same goes with two others I offered to help them when moving in 2021 during Covid but they declined cause of Covid rules… So yeah I offered everyone my help in some way in the past but no one really needed my help.

So in my case I never helped anyone but I offered my help. That is one reason why I didn’t directly ask my friends for help either because well I never helped them (even if I wanted to) so was hoping they’d just ask if I need help like I asked them.

But in the end I would have also refused to get help from them but it would have been nice if someone asked.

Kind of okay.

I’m focusing a lot on myself since January and been going to the gym a lot.

I am noticing though that I am being excluded to things I haven’t been excluded before by some of my friends. We use to go hang around and drink a lot, they still drink a lot in fact but it’s just not my goal anymore.

I feel like I am slowly losing a ton of friends. And at the age of 33 it’s really hard to find other friends. Not that I want to replace them or they did anything bad to me besides not asking me to go out anymore for obvious reasons that I don’t want to drink anymore… but it’s still kind of a scary process.

I am really wondering if I should just reduce gym and drink again. But at the same time I love going to the gym now and really am not in the mood for hangovers at 32.

And once you did that all you have to do is

I work 7 nights, 8 off, 7 nights, 8 off and so on…

All I can say is that ending my 7th nightshift coming out monday morning it is great to go shopping, it is great to go to the local spa, it is great to basically do any activity cause no crowds.

The downside is that I am usually the only person low age and rest are retired people. Or my friends that work shifts too and are off, thats great.

If I wouldn’t have a wife that has only off weekends and works a regular 9 to 5 I’d probably try to work every weekend and take days off monday to friday. Weekends suck imo cause everything is crowded.

I like to go to the gym monday to thursday, I’m usually alone at 10 in the morning with a few old people doing random exercises. But they don’t block the leg press, the benches and the pull up bars.

In general I am very grateful for working shifts (especially night) cause more money, less stress at work (quiet at night) and no management. And I can go to the gym when no one is there.

I think I asked myself what happens if I do this another decade and where I might be.

I saw my belly fat, my chest fat, looked at myself and signed up for gym. Reading into gym and how to progresse efficiently gave it all an end cause I need protein, I need healthy fats I need good carbs and the most important: Water, Rest (good quality sleep) and no stress.

All this doesn’t allow for weekends drinking or drinking in general. Yes I do drink on vacations a beer or two but I notice after a beer I actually don’t like the taste. My cheat drink now is cappucinos lol.

Yeah could be. But how do I know how much I damaged my brain the last decade with all this drinking “for fun”?

Not required but makes life easier.

I think in sone places for example Singapore, Japan etc where most people are more with phones its really required.

I needed my bank card for example in Singapore to use the MRT but the App makes it so much easier. Or moving from A to B with Grab, uber, etc.

And without a phone you look normal in those places cause almost 95% staring at a screen. You got nothing to do, no one to talk to cause all on phone.

At first you think you are superior, dont rely on ohone and you arebt addicted like they are. But after that thought pops up 20 times in the same train ride you notice its just an illusion and not worth the energy to pretend you arent one of them. If I had a phone Id def watch shows or read news during public Transport. Its like reading news paper 20 years ago.

Nothing bad about phones. Its really just people using them 24/7, for example during dinner with family or friends. Go to a Restaurant. People have phones next to their plates and grab them every 10 seconds.

It might be cause they got nothing in common with the ppl at the table but why go eat out together then if all your phone contacts are better?

One day I will take a book with me to a table if someone uses phone. Ill double down being a better Person. For not using phone and for reading.

But the real thing is: why should they pay attention to you? You are competing against an algorithm that knows everyone better than you do and ever could. The question is: do the people want to fight that or just go with it? Its Hard to quit phone though with how Apps are designed. Just one more Clip, just one more message.

I swear in Singapore people walking while watching phone. They were able to dodge etc.

Im from Germany.

Rip

Well I own a home which is direct neighbour to a loud Church. Its unsellable and cant move away til its sold so there is my sind…

I played Warcraft 3 TFT Line Tower Wars and Diablo 2 LOD between 2004 and 2008. A but Starcraft BW and WoW inbetween

Thanks!!

Normally I put back about 250 € for car a month. All that money I used after it got through the “TÜV” for my house construction. I am saving again now though… it will be fine the next two years and even if it breaks down now my father would buy me a new car and I’d pay him back instead. But honestly that isn’t my plan. I don’t want to rely on his money.

Thats a good idea… but if a uterus is completly removed, how does it work?

In 2025 MAGA’s will think that Thanksgiving dinner is cheaper than ever since Trump won the election and not even know it’s only cheaper cause half of the family abandoned them. They will just say everything is so cheap thanks Trump and believe it and fail to understand that they just had to buy less groceries.

Enjoy your Thanksgiving this year and eat as much as you can cause this is the last affordable for most MAGAs

The text above is real. America has fast food restaurants failing to sell 1/3 pounders because people think 1/4 pounders are more cause 4 is bigger than 3. A reason why a fast food chain quit selling 1/3 pounders and lost competition to 1/4 pounders. That is the educational standard of 40% of americans.

I’d be gone.